31st August - Switching Off



I'm a bit torn this week, between popping my phone into airplane mode and just using it for bluetooth connections and essential Whatsapps on WiFi, or turning it off completely. Switching off is a necessity at certain times, especially when so many things are going on around you. Truth be told, I've become quite an anxious person. Even last night, I received a call at almost 11pm, and I'll be honest with you, calls - in general - always make me feel nervous. If you need to contact me, message me. But calls at 11pm, and this was a 'No Caller ID', they leave me feeling even more nervous. On this occasion, it didn't really help that the caller then refused to speak and just stayed silent on the phone for a number of seconds as I kept repeating 'Hello?', before they hung up. 

I'm starting to realise that family come before everything else, and that if you need to switch off, that's absolutely fine. I've certainly been guilty of neglecting my family issues in the past. I had long periods of my life when I didn't even speak to my Father. But one day, it's too late and you don't even have that option anymore. My behaviour recently has been a bit manic, but you needn't worry about me. I'm on the road to recovery, I think, but in order to get through these next few weeks successfully, the first thing I may have to do - and don't be alarmed if I do it - is to switch off completely. Rest assured, when the time is right, as Arnie once said...




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