27th April - Maturity & Wisdom



How many times am I going to keep doing this to myself, and never learning? I chose not to watch the Champions League Semi-Final last night, and lo-and-behold, what transpired was another all-time classic! Alas, we move. One of the key conversations I indulged in last night was with two of my closest friends, who I've known for a combined 26 years now. During that time, we've always been involved in a group chat together, just the three of us, and regularly - like all groupchats - offer daily musings of banter, nostalgic memories, and sporting debate. 

However, there had been times over the years when tensions in the group could easily spill over. We're all very different characters, you see. I'm the 'apathy' type. I'm aware that often, there's a lot of bullshit flying around, but I've learned to shrug at it over the years with an attitude a lot of my friends refer to as 'disappointed but not surprised'. But as a trio, we're very much an embodiment of the traffic light system, with myself playing the role of 'amber'. In the green corner, we have a fairly passive guy, often lacking in confidence over the years, someone who avoids confrontation and possesses a somewhat turtle-like tendency to retreat into his shell at the first sign of trouble. However, on the other side, we have the red-flag of the raging bull, who takes such sign of offence personally, and can often lead into an interrogation-style line of questioning which - to an amber like myself - feels fair and reasonable, but to a 'green', can come across as brash, brutal, and intimidating. 




We mused how over the past 12 months or so specifically, the relationship between the three of us has eased into a much more peaceful, harmonious, and joyful daily occurrence. The reasoning for such is both personality types allowing themselves to gradually slip more towards the amber midriff of this particular see-saw. Palpatine is now becoming Dooku, more of a light-side minded Sith, whilst Obi-Wan is coming towards the 'grey' open-minded nature of, say, a Qui Gon Jinn. We acknowledged that this is down to an natural evolution in our own maturity & wisdom. As you grow older, the only things you care about are the overall life happiness levels of yourself and those closest to you. If they're happy, I'm happy. The days of 274 notifications and endless drivel are over, those were reserved for the mid-20s when everything was a show of one-upmanship and ego control. At this point, to once again tap into the Star Wars analogies, I'm more of a Yoda. I can't be arsed with the drama, just stick me on Dagobah and let me watch my little telly and eat a small bowl of stew... 




... I am at one with the force, and the force is at one with me.



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